2. As I was driving home from the retreat center that has become so familiar to me, I stopped at a rest stop along the the turnpike and realized two things: 1) I require Sta.rbu.cks (Chai, no coffee for this girl) and 2) assimilating back into the "real world" is going to be difficult this time. Everything seemed sharp and harsh, even the lack of "you're welcome" from the woman who made my chai latte was so stark in contrast to the previous four days. There was a glimmer of hope in the teen boy who held the door open for me when I headed back out to my car.
3. I also got to see my dear friend, Fr. Tom. Fr. Tom is from Ireland and we met and became friends at TOB 1 in October. In this case, Facebook is a true blessing because it has allowed us to become even better friends and I was so looking forward to seeing him again. He sat beside me all week in class and I could feel his prayers for me during the times the tears ran down my cheeks and the silent sobs shook my whole body.
|Me and Fr. Tom!|
4. Oh, and did I mention that Chris.topher W.est was the instructor for the week? See...
|Please excuse the puffy, tired eyes - this was after about 5 days of crying. And this was taken BEFORE I tried to tell him thank-you...|
5. As I am writing about my week, I am realizing I have been extremely remiss in writing about some awesome meet-ups with some of you!!! While I was in Texas, I got to meet J. from Faith Makes things Possible, not Easy AND E. from One Joyful Day AND I also got to hang out with Kara whose husband recognized me by my blog back in April. Then, JellyBelly and her hubby were travelling through Pittsburgh on their way back home and we had dinner together! And finally, January from Women for All Seasons and I met on my way to my retreat last Sunday. It has been a summer full of blogger meet-ups and I think January said it best when she said, "Meeting confirmed we were already friends, we just had to fill in some of the practical details." Thank-you, from the bottom of my heart to all of you, for being a part of my life and for rearranging details so that we could share real hugs, real smiles, and real love with one another. I am honored and humbled.
6. Do any of you ever notice the "Daily Jolt" at the top right of my blog? Well, today's "jolt" is so appropriate and ties so much into my journey of infertility I have to share it:
Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for. ~Epicurus
It is this balance I continue to struggle with - hoping for motherhood while not ruining the life I do have in the process. Such a simple thing to say. Such a difficult thing to live.
7. And, in order to make these takes authentically random AND authentically me, I will now remind you that football season starts in 8 DAYS!!!!!! Well, I'm sure there will be a college game or two before next Saturday, but in my world (and this is my blog :-)) WVU Football starts on Saturday, September 1 at Noon. This football season is once again bittersweet, somehow I never thought I'd be facing another one without a child, and yet, I know how healing football can be for me. So, I'm going to focus on the good and enjoy getting out all of my gold and blue (and maybe even buying a new shirt or two!), enjoy planning yummy tailgate food, and figuring out what I shall drink, since beer has gluten in it *sniff*, each week!