We finally, finally, got the key
We have to be out of our apartment by Thursday night.
And we both work all week.
Fun times I tell ya, fun times.
But, just taking over the few boxes that we did have packed (we had to take them in and unpack them, so we could repack them because we ran out - I'm organized like that), and standing in our living room looking around put me at such ease. When I wrote about feeling like we've taken 2 steps back at times, I think the biggest thing that has made me feel that way is living in a tiny apartment.
It was the right decision for us to make when we made it. The rent is cheap, we can have Kali (it's h.a.r.d. hard to find a rental that is even decent in Morgantown that will allow you to have pets - a downside of living in a college town), and it's nice. But moving from a 3 bedroom house with a fenced in back yard to a 1 bedroom apartment with no yard was quite an adjustment. Most of our stuff has been in storage for 2 years and though we've had company a few times, it's not what I would call comfortable to have more than just the 2 of us in here. While it's not been ideal, this tiny apartment has been home. We've loved and cried and laughed here, and really that is what matters. It's not the walls around us, but the life within them that make our home.
If leaving our first home was tough, this will somehow be a little bit tougher. By the time our house in Martinsburg sold, The Man had already been living in Morgantown for 6 months and I was more than ready to join him. But here, in this place, this tiny place, is where we've grown and changed. Where we went from being married 4 years to being married 6 years. Where I turned 30. Where we lived without Pumpkin for the first time. Where I rediscovered my Catholic Faith. Where it felt like life stalled and then started again.
So, when the time comes to turn the key in the lock for the last time I will be ready to go. I am ready to have a house to make a home again. But, a part of me will miss this place. The part of me that feels like this tiny apartment was more a home than our house ever was.
This is a definite step forward, I just didn't anticipate it feeling like such a big step.