On Saturday, The Man and I went to Adoration for the first time ever.
Many members of our diocese (and others?) were making a pilgrimage to the National Cathedral in Washington, DC to participate in a day of prayer for those whose lives were lost and changed forever on Sept. 11, 2001. Our new Priest (I love him, btw!), scheduled a time of Adoration from Noon - 5pm as a way to pray for those of us who were not making the pilgrimage. He asked that 30 minute time slots be signed up for to ensure that the Blessed Sacrament would always be watched over; so, The Man and I signed up for the 3:00 - 3:30 time slot.
As we were getting ready to leave, I was excited and nervous - Adoration is something I've wanted to experience for a while now, but I wasn't completely sure what The Man would think. I figured he had agreed as one of those 'I'll be a good husband and go' kind of things, so I decided to give him the option to stay home if he wanted (genuinely, not with the 'you can stay home, but if you do you'll hear about it later' tone at all). He said no, he'd like to go, but then he asked a question:
"Can we take it outside and chill with it?"
I quickly realized this meant he was also a little bit nervous and wasn't sure what to expect either.
I laughed and said 'No, I don't think that's really a good idea. And you know that's going on my blog right?'
He then said:
"Didn't jesus even say himself that 'it's not in the buildings, or the bricks, or something like that'"
I had to concede, but pointed out that I didn't think Father Mark would appreciate it if we took the Blessed Sacrament outside and just 'chilled with it'. And with that we were off.
I can't really describe the feelings I had during the Adoration time. At first I was worried that 30 minutes would seem like forever and that I wouldn't know what to pray about or that my mind would wander. And then I was upset with myself for forgetting my rosary and became really nervous about how I would possibly stay focused for 30 minutes.
I finally settled on starting with The Lord's Prayer and a few Hail Marys to get myself focused and centered. And the prayers came from there.
It was such a peaceful, calming experience. To have 30 minutes in the presence of Jesus to pray and praise.
And that 30 minutes went by faster than I expected. I could have stayed much longer. The Man and I had not discussed staying longer than the 30 minutes and I of course wasn't sure if his experience had been as good as mine, so I didn't want to force the issue.
As we walked out of the church in silence. I said a final prayer of thanks for finally having the opportunity to experience Adoration.
And, as The Man and I drove home, he said "It was like He was telling us Thank-you at the end when the sun shone on us."
You see, our church is new and has lots of windows and if the sun is shining outside, it is shining inside somewhere too. As the sun moves across the sky, it changes where it shines inside. At the end of our 30 minutes, the sun was shining right on our faces.
And in that moment, I knew The Man had had a good experience too.
I am hopeful that Father Mark offers more opportunities for Adoration.