How to write this post? How to sum up 2009?
These thoughts have been going around and around in my mind for weeks now (is that pathetic?).
I've started to write about how bad this year has been. How hard. How much I've struggled. A kind of 'good riddance to 2009 post'.
And then I remember, that there is the other side.
And I start to write about all of the good things that have happened this year. A kind of 'focus on the good of 2009 post'.
But I've realized that writing about one side without the other isn't it either.
Until a few weeks ago, I was truly counting the days until 2009 was over. I don't remember a time when I've ever wanted to turn the calendar so badly to a new year.
I don't remember a time when the promise of a new year, a new start, actually meant something.
And I think 2009 will be the year I first felt like an adult.
Sure there have been moments of 'adultness' before. Never so many, so close together as this year. Some good. Some not so good.
But in 10 years, how will I truly look back on 2009?
Here's what I hope and pray I remember:
That I truly understood God's Grace for the first time in my life.
That I am married to an amazing man who is truly a gift from God.
That I am stronger than I realized.
That I am blessed in many more ways than I am not.
That real friends are truly those who you can be yourself with and your true self is enough.
That at the end of the day, the wag of a tail really can make life happier.
That loving your job is an intangible, invaluable blessing.
That I can choose whether my glass is 'half-full' or 'half-empty'. I choose 'half-full'.
That I 'met' some of the most amazing people through the blogosphere; and strengthened my IRL relationship with others through it as well.
That God is good. Always.
What do you want to remember from this year?